"The problem is no longer getting people to express themselves, but providing little gaps of solitude and silence in which they might eventually find something to say. Repressive forces don’t stop people from expressing themselves, but rather, force them to express themselves. What a relief to have nothing to say, the right to say nothing, because only then is there a chance of framing the rare, or ever rarer, the thing that might be worth saying."
Gilles Deleuze, “Mediators” (via allisonburtch)
Last night I dreamed of a twilight picnic. My friends and I were set down at a very long family-style table. The woman I used to think of as my sister and her boyfriend were seated at the far end. We looked at each other. I spoke with my friends for a while about nothing in particular, feeling feelings I cannot name, when I looked back to where she was seated to see that she and her party were gone.
When I woke up I realized that for all intents and purposes my dream was not really a dream. She is still gone. It still feels like a death in the family.
What it’s like to be an administrator the first week ‘back-to-school’
The Paris Review interviews John Waters
PR: In Role Models, I love when you say, “Fiction is the truth, fool!”
JW: I’ve had people say to me, really educated people, “I don’t have time for fiction.” Well, what do you think literature is? That is what life is!
But do you know how widespread that reaction is? Well, you probably do know! People say they’re “too busy” to read fiction. Or they say that you only really learn if you know facts. Come on!
As if you don’t learn from a novel.
Yes! But they don’t think you do. Which means they’re stupid.
"Talking like touching
Writing like punching somebody"
"To be born a woman has to be born, within an allotted and confined space, into the keeping of men. The social presence of women is developed as a result of their ingenuity in living under such tutelage within such a limited space. But this has been at the cost of a woman’s self being split into two. A woman must continually watch herself. She is almost continually accompanied by her own image of herself. Whilst she is walking across a room or whilst she is weeping at the death of her father, she can scarcely avoid envisaging herself walking or weeping. From earliest childhood she has been taught and persuaded to survey herself continually. And so she comes to consider the surveyor and the surveyed within her as the two constituent yet always distinct elements of her identity as a woman. She has to survey everything she is and everything she does because how she appears to men, is of crucial importance for what is normally thought of as the success of her life. Her own sense of being in herself is supplanted by a sense of being appreciated as herself by another….One might simplify this by saying: men act and women appear. Men look at women. Women watch themselves being looked at. This determines not only most relations between men and women but also the relation of women to themselves. The surveyor of woman in herself is male: the surveyed female. Thus she turns herself into an object — and most particularly an object of vision: a sight."
John Berger, Ways of Seeing
This quote punched me in the face. John Berger put words so clearly to a feeling, a way of being, a self, that I have never been able to fully grasp or articulate myself. I googled him after I read the quote and learned he’s an art critic! An art critic! Made me smile.